I dropped my banana...

Let me start out by saying, on my bike ride down the street to the gym, I enjoy a banana as well as the balancing act of staying on the bike with my duffle (gym) bag and make sure I don't hit anything as I make it down a dimly lit street. Well today, you guessed it... I dropped my banana, and of course I was already running late.  You may think this is no big deal, and it wasn't until I got in from my run. *not feeling well* Since I started working out I've always ate 1/2 a banana in the morning before hand so I had something in my stomach, well today I was missing my something, because it was three blocks back being pecked away by birds. Moral of the story, eat something before you work out; as for me... keep something extra in my bag.  Today, I found a piece of gum.

Lets do this: 

That's exactly how I feel. I had a good conversation with Raquel today during our run.  We discussed what changes I've gone through lately and how to get back on track.  As I spilled my work out heart and soul, I realized it all made sense... (for those of you who I've talked to, I'm sure you already know what's coming) but, when I work out I feel good about myself, I feel like I want to eat right, and I want to continue, but when I feel bad I make excuses, I allow myself to make silly mistakes and don't hold myself accountable.  Well folks, I'm feeling good! As I was running past the Casa Marina and weaving through the small neighborhoods of Key West, I realized something...I was still running with Raquel. I told her, you may be running slower, but I'm for now I'm going to tell myself that you're not and I've actually kept up with you the whole time.  She laughed and said, this is my pace, maybe slightly faster, but for the most part, this is my pace... WHAT! Could you say that again?? 

I...me...Kristin Kammermeier is going to finish this morning run along side of you rather than blocks behind you? Hold the phone, people... this has not happened in months, like since our first run! 

So, we carried on.  She asked me how I felt about a half marathon...dun dun dun. How do I feel, scared, 13 point what, "too heavy and slow to run that far", intimidated, anxious, wait...maybe excited, a sense of accomplishment, over the moon and back for everyone who does them, and someday myself... does that answer your question? Raquel, I'd love to do it, I would LOVE to do it, and I've talked to Monica and Danielle about them a million times...BUT, I don't think I can. I don't want to fail, and failing to me is not finishing...it's not racing everyone else, or even walking, it's not finishing, and not finishing for a silly reason like not training or preparing myself, I'm not going to set myself up for failure.  

Her matter-a-fact answer; what are you worried about, in late February we left Stay Fit for your first run and by April 14th you had a 5K under your belt.  You can do it, the question is do you want to? 

Yes, yes, yes, of course I want to... still not totally convinced. I want to set goals, but I want them to be attainable. I said to myself, Kristin, is this something you can physically and mentally do? 

Raquel also said, you can't beat yourself up over the fact that you took a break... at least you caught yourself now and not a year from now, and even then, if you would have caught yourself in a year, at least your caught yourself.  

Those who know me best, and especially those who have been on this work out journey with me at some point know that I enjoy not only getting physically healthy, but socially as well, surrounding myself with positive, supportive people.  Raquel said to me today, you enjoy working out with other people, being able to talk about it throughout the day... yes, I do. 

If I'm going to make the life change, it's not only from 5:00am-7:00am... it's 24/7, and knocking down goals along the way.  January 20, 2013, ready or not.  

Running is a pain in the ass...but it'll give you a nice one ;) 

Today: I ran and did pedal and pump, what are you plans to stay active?